Thursday, December 07, 2006
yupps...once again...a terrible day for me...having to hide all my feelings inside me...see her toking to everyone happily but me...n not say tok...even sat beside oso dun wish to....guess she wants to make a clean break wif me?? many negatives tot today..but somehow i did wad i promised....not to tink of e negative side n try to tink positive...yes i did it somehow...but e feeling was terrible e whole day....cos of her....since morning....my heart...chest...ther is tiz pain ther is like pounding on me veery hard...making me hard to breathe....seriously tiz is e FIRST TIME i had tiz feeling...feeling of crying uncontrollablily....having wantin to leave e place without letting dem koe...all i koe was TERRIBLE FEELING!!!! once again had tasted e feeling of losing someone close to me again...its terrible....n i dun wish to taste it again...NEVER!!!
Do any one believe that I Stanley Ng Chuan Guan is a soft-hearted and fragile guy??? i dun tink anyone do believe....but i m one fragile guy...my heart can be broken very easily...i feel that ther is many tings i wish to say out...but i cant put dem all in sentences....come to tink of tt....today in sch i felt like as though i m alone....wen i tok to B....quite a few times...but B duno nv hear or din wan to reply...u koe how hurt was i?? it may seems that i m always posting e same ting over n over again...and it will be tiring for e read to read tiz over n over again....
beside BLOGGING n BLOGGING the same tink over n over....i feel i have no one to tell too....cos YES i admit i m WRONG...wrong for saying i m JEALOUS....but who doesnt feel e same way as i do?? hu is not possesive towards someone that is close to u..Just because you dun see the tears doesn't mean tt they're not there...but do u koe how hurt i m feeling??? who koes?? haix....i m so used to u le....mayb no one is able to replace u in my heart....as a sis....hu reali make me laugh as u laugh n sad as u are feeling sad.....the feeling i m feeling inside me may b different from u.......i koe tt....!
haix....all i wish for christmas tiz yr is hoping tings will be back to normal and u being happy n cheerful ger again...tt my wish for mine christmas present...wads urs?Labels: Terrible Feeling Day
posted at 11:28 PM
